I was born and raised in a christian
family in India. My parents were very strict regarding spiritual formalities,
so I was brought up under stern discipline. They insisted me to go to church
every Sunday, read the Bible and pray every day.
I wasn't good in my studies. I struggled to get passing marks in my
exams. Not only that, my home was a broken home. My parents and we children
fought with one another. It was such a hell that it is very difficult
to explain in words. I was totally broken, dejected and had no hope
in my life. I wondered whether any good thing would ever happen to me.
No Interest In
During my school days, almost every day, I wished that it might be the
last day of my life and that the evening might not come so that I need
not return home. How my soul longed to meet with some accident so I
could die! But it never happened. Many a times, I thought of committing
suicide. But whenever I thought about it, a great fear would come over
me and I would abandon the idea. I had no interest in living in this
Meanwhile, something happened to my legs and the doctors could not figure
out what the problem was. I was unable to walk due to terrible pain
in my legs. I was hardly able to even move from my bed. Doctors gave
me double doses of the pain killer, but it never helped me. The misery
Then one day I heard a Christian radio
program in which the preacher said, "If you die today, would you
go to heaven? If you are not sure about going to heaven, repent from
your sins and invite Jesus Christ in your life. He will forgive all
your sins and give you assurance of heaven."
I prayed the sinner's prayer with him:
"Lord Jesus, I am a sinner. Please forgive all my sins and wash
me with your precious blood. Please give me assurance of heaven that
if I die today, I may reach heaven."
As soon as I prayed this prayer from
my heart, a great peace came into my life. Though my circumstances did
not change immediately, still I got great peace and joy in my heart.
A Sweet Home
I started feeling as if all of the miserable conditions had left me.
In due course, my family members also accepted Jesus into their lives,
and they started changing. My home became a sweet home. God removed
all the bitterness from our hearts and helped us to love each other.
Not only that, God exalted me in my studies. I took many exams after
that and passed all of them with flying colors. God also healed me
completely. My life has not been miserable any longer.
God has blessed me and my family members.
Now I work as a computer programmer. I also run a weekly ezine called
"In Search of Peace" and have written three books.